The day before, at the post office, I’d gotten so frustrated that I had kicked the self-service machine. They’d replaced it in the two months I was gone, and whatever they spent on this replacement was an absolute waste of money.
After the inital hysteria, the bloodlust fades from her eyes. Now she has realized her strength. She wanders the house meowing, as if calling for a challenger to face her.
A spark may have started the wildfire, but nobody went around lighting each individual tree. That's where the anger comes from, in part. It comes from the helplessness of these situations. The gut-punch reminder that we have no power, no control over the world around us.
- Give more love to those who don't deserve it
When the angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon and told him "The Lord is with you, mighty man of valor," Gideon's response was somewhat valid. "If the Lord is with us, why then has all this happened to us?"
Is it true that You love me?
I know that it's true, but
I need to believe with my eyes
That You lift the lowly out of the ashes
A fever is treatable, and so is an infection. But you'll never find the infection you can't see if you only care about getting rid of the fever you can see
When I lived west-side I would glance at the blue hills, sometimes, and feel as if I was just too small to appreciate so much beauty. I can't experience all the love I want to feel, all the time, because I am not large enough. I am insufficient.
When the dark came upon me, it came suddenly. It was a car accident on a rainy night. A series of relational upheavals. Chronic pain. Depression. Grief.
From where does the dark come?